It's Been Awhile....

And a lot has happened in a short time. The kids are getting big. I love my job(s). Things are hard. Things will get better. We saw Cloverfield, and are going to see it again Saturday. If I'd blogged the other day it would have been a very depressing blog indeed. I found myself thinking very scary thoughts, thoughts like I was being abandoned by God and that I've really pissed Him off in a big way. It was scary because throughout the last several months, though things have been exceedingly difficult, I have never once questioned Him. I've always turned to Him, and tried to rely on Him. But with the way the tide has turned, I find it increasingly difficult to do that anymore. And when you think it's the rock bottom, and nobody can help, encouragement comes in strange packages, and from the strangest possible sources. Like the Verizon Wireless customer service agent. Like my first patient who reminded me, without saying a word, that someone out there always has it worse than you. Like the fact that even in the midst of all this I still feel loved. I attributed that feeling solely to the love I get from my family, but I have realized since then that the Love I feel also comes from a Heavenly source. So yeah, life might suck right now, but God has subtle ways of letting me know that as long as I continue to keep my eyes on Him, do the things I'm doing, take the positive steps I'm taking, things WILL turn around. Things WILL improve. Things will not stay dark forever. Right? The sun does rise again....yeah?