God's Presence

I had a wonderful moment earlier this week....I was privilged to teach a Group X Fitness class! It was truly humbling. And I am thankful for the experience.

In other news, I am thinking about making this blog private....and starting a "public" blog with my random thoughts that don't include updates or pictures of my children...there are evil people in cyberspace and I don't want them having access to my blog. Unfortunately I don't know who they all are, so I can't block their IP addresses, and besides that they have their ways...I'm perhaps just overly cyber-paranoid maybe? I'll put that feeler out there and if you think you might be interested in reading my blog email me and let me know your address, and if I go private I will add you.

Priorities

As I sit here pondering what the future may or may not hold, I wonder about where my priorities lie. I like to think that I've got a pretty good handle on what's important, and what is not important. And I like to pretend to myself that I have it all together...but the sad truth is that I don't think I do.

I have a career I adore, a job that I actually look forward to going to, and a family who is extremely supportive of me (to the point of self sacrifice on their part). I have a new Church home that makes me happier Spiritually than I've been in a very long time. And I've lost so much weight that I am almost back to my pre-pregnancy weight (I am back to pre-pregnancy SIZE which is tremendous in and of itself). But in the mix of all this stands the dark cloud over my life : time. I do not have enough time. I do not have enough hours in a day to work, work out, eat, and spend quality time with my children. So here is where I have my question of priorities comes in :

1. How do I fit in my extra-curricular activities (i.e. the gym) and not make my children feel neglected? How can I possibly hope to make fitness important in their lives if I do not set time aside each day to work on my own fitness? But how do I do it in such a way that they are not neglected?

It's also an issue that the things I enjoy most at the gym are (in the following order) : 1. working out with my husband, 2. Group X classes. Michael and I can't work out together after I get off work because the gym is ridiculously busy. And Group X classes are only offered at certain times of the day. I can go to the gym late at night and do elliptical and weights, but then I miss out on time with Michael. This may seem an odd quandary, but it is really important to me nonetheless, and ANY input would be welcome!

I'm BAAAAAACK

After a year hiatus from internets, I am back in business y'all! I must say I have missed blogging. Even if nobody reads, I've missed the catharsis of writing. So I must say that I am excited to be able to sit down and write, even if it's only for myself.

With that said, here is my first post....something I've been thinking on for awhile :

Growing

Each day I look at you and I see :
A growing intelligence.
A growing understanding of the world around you.
A growing ability to bend situations to your will.
A growing sense of confidence.
A growing vocabulary.
A growing sense of humor.
A growing love of life.
A growing appreciation for living creatures great and small.
A growing Spirituality.
A growing little boy and a growing little girl.
And I feel inside of me :
A growing sense of pride for who you are becoming.
A growing feeling of love that I didn't know could get any bigger.
A growing appreciation of the sacrifice God made for me.
A growing sense of dread that this world I want to shelter you from is becoming more unpredictable.
A growing feeling of sadness that you are growing up so very very quickly.
A growing feeling of happiness that you are on the road to accomplishing all of your goals.

I love you, my beautiful sweet children.